The past 3 weeks have been hard. I started having some anxiety and depression and sleeping even worse. Of course there have been a lot of things going on in our life. (We bought a town home!) The stress of that and the fact that I haven't slept well this entire pregnancy I think just built up and gave me anxiety. My doc gave me Zoloft and Ambien. If you know anything about Ambien, you know that you're supposed to take it and go straight to bed because it can make you have hallucinations and stuff. Sean takes it and he gets really goofy on it. Well, the first night I took it I didn't go straight to bed and started having hallucinations but it wasn't funny. Made me really scared and emotional. I remember asking Sean if I was safe. Sean gave me a blessing, though, and it all stopped and I finally fell asleep. Now I take it and go straight to bed!! I sleep great when I take it. I wish I could take it every night.
The past few days I have been really anxious about what my life will be like with 2 children. I wake up in the middle of the night and can't stop thinking and wondering about the future. Which gives me anxiety. Which makes me not be able to sleep. Which gives me more anxiety. Blah! So today when my doctor gave me the option of being induced early, I took it! It's for my health, right? :) I just need to start the next step in our lives.
Since I hit 38 weeks I feel like she doubled in size! It is really hard to get around and I feel like "a giant potato with arms and legs and a head." And she is down so low causing a lot of pressure. Ouch!
I am nervous and excited to meet this baby girl. I wonder what she will look like. I'm sure she'll have dark hair. I can't believe it's already time for her to come. Wish us luck!!
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| 38 weeks + 2 days. Ugh, I am so huge. |
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You are going to be great. And you're beautiful!! You have done so much for this little girl already! You'll never be fully prepared, so just go for peace and harmony. Love you so much!
Oh, and I'll see you in 4 weeks!!
oh Britt! I hope that all goes so well with getting here! I can't wait to see her! She'll be gorgeous and you'll do fine with two kids. It just takes a lot of patience (which I haven't had much of... hehe). I hope you have a better next few days!
You got your house! YAY! And I had a dream last night that you had your baby, and brought her to a 9th Ward Party. And you wouldn't let me see her. :( Sniffle. But I'm so glad that you got an induction date set, and I know you'll be so blessed with the adjusting to 2 kids and a new house thing! And you're doing it without your mom! I'm glad Leash is coming out to you. :) I love you!
You don't look like a potato at all. I think you look darling and beautiful. I know it's scary, I remember feeling the same way, but you have been such a good Mommy to Brandon and everything has seemed to come to you naturally. You're wonderful at this. It's going to be OK. And I'm here to help whenever you need it. Don't be afraid to ask. Love you so much!
Oh Brittany -- I am so excited for you. What a great time of your life -- you are so darling even though you "feel like a potato" -- that is a pretty good description of what it feels like though. We are cheering for you here in Greece and will love to see the beautiful results of all your hard work. I am so glad you have lots of people who love you and will help you. You are great!
One day at a time Brittany - you can't think of it all at once - your head will explode! Just work on today and let the rest work itself out. I will be sending uplifting loving thoughts your way. :) Love ya!
Good Luck! You are going to do great!
Congratulations on the house! When do you get to move? You are a great mom and I know you will be able to handle both kids just fine! Like Jamie said, take one day at a time. There are days when I feel like the worst mom ever, but kids are so forgiving and love you no matter what! :) Love you!
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